Tell me more about love. I want to know how it feels like, I want to experience it too. I'm jealous of people that have felt love before. And by that, I mean a certain type of love. How does it feel like to know that someone cares so much about you to the point that they can't take the thought of you not being near them and returning the same thing in exchange?
Fucking someone is easy. Loving someone is the difficult part. Staying with them and being ready to commit yourself to one person is even harder. 
I want to wake up next to the person I love. I want to admire their beautiful face that is being illuminated by the morning sun. I want to be the first person they smile at when they open their eyes and realize they have been stared at while being asleep.
I want to hear the beautiful sound of their laughter. Not being able to have that makes me extremely sad.
I can't help but feel like this is exactly what's missing in my life. It's one of the many puzzle pieces that belongs to me. That makes me whole. 
I know what you're thinking.
A person doesn't complete because you're already your own person. 
Yes, you are! But the thought of having someone you deeply love by your side is fucking irresistible. It makes living easier. You have something to look forward to. No matter how fucked up everything is, they manage to put a smile on your face and make you feel secure. Like you're on top of the world.
So don't fucking tell me, that this is not something you don't want.
But the truth is, I will never know how it feels like to be loved by someone you admire. 
It will always be one-sided.
It's always been like that.
Why would it change?
Don't tell me I'm pretty because apparently being pretty doesn't seem to be enough.
I'm never enough.
I never will be enough.