My love for you will always remain, for this big heart of mine can love infinitely. I hope, no matter the circumstances, you feel that my love is still yours. I am not used to feeling like this. It hurts thinking about what I dislike. But I can't stop. It's like the dark thoughts are consuming me. It's so exhausting. I'm just another broken fucked-up girl that is unable to deal with reality. I do not deserve anyone. I do not deserve to be loved. No matter how scared I am or fear to be abandoned I deeply love you with all my heart and mind and never want to leave your side. I am so confused, I'm filled with self-hatred and I don't know what to do! Many times, for a long time I have been thinking about ways to disappear and never be found. Recently, I have been thinking about that again. Going to a place where no one knows you. You are nobody. You solely exist. You never stay at one place too long. No responsibilities whatsoever. It's just you and the freedom. A traveler with no certain destination.